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[10 Sep 2010|11:08pm] |
Any minute now, my ship is coming in
I'll keep checking the horizon
I'll stand on the bow, feel the waves come crashing
Come crashing down, down, down, on me
And you say, be still my love
Open up your heart
Let the light shine in
But don't you understand
I already have a plan
I'm waiting for my real life to begin
When I awoke today, suddenly nothing happened
But in my dreams, I slew the dragon
And down this beaten path, and up this cobbled lane
I'm walking in my old footsteps, once again
And you say, just be here now
Forget about the past, your mask is wearing thin
Let me throw one more dice
I know that I can win
I'm waiting for my real life to begin
Any minute now, my ship is coming in
I'll keep checking the horizon
And I'll check my machine, there's sure to be that call
It's gonna happen soon, soon, soon
It's just that times are lean
And you say, be still my love
Open up your heart, let the light shine in
Don't you understand
I already have a plan
I'm waiting for my real life to begin
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6 Dares - ~*Dare To Dream*~.
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[20 Jun 2010|11:51am] |
Have you ever fed a lover
With just your hands
Close your eyes
And trusted, just trusted
Have you ever thrown
A fist full of glitter in the air
Have you ever looked fear in the face
And said I just dont care
Its only half past the point of no return
The tip of the iceberg
The sun before the burn
The thunder before the lightning
And the breath before the phrase
Have you ever felt this way...
Have you ever hated yourself
For staring at the phone
Your whole life waiting on the ring
To prove youre not alone
Have you ever been touched so gently
You had to cry
Have you ever invited a stranger
To come inside
Its only half past the point of oblivion
The hourglass on the table
The walk before the run
The breath before the kiss
And the fear before the phrase
Have you ever felt this way...
la la la la la la la la
There you are, sitting in the garden
Clutching my coffee, callin me sugar
You called me sugar
Have you ever wished for an endless night
Lassoed the moon and the stars
And pulled that rope tight
Have you ever held your breath
And asked yourself
Will it ever get better
Than tonight, tonight.......
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~*Dare To Dream*~.
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| off to meet the wizard... |
[12 Jun 2010|01:35am] |
"Hearts will be practical only when they are made unbreakable."
"Without a heart I can never really know what it would be like to love someone."
"Summer romances begin for all kinds of reasons, but when all is said and done, they have one thing in common. They’re shooting stars, a spectacular moment of light in the heavens, fleeting glimpse of eternity, and in a flash they’re gone."
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~*Dare To Dream*~.
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[12 Jun 2010|01:27am] |
You wanna know what the truth is? I still love you and I probably will love you for a very long time. But I can’t just be your buddy, because as much as I enjoy the concept of being “just friends” in reality it’s a bizarre form of torture and I’m just not willing to participate in it. So right now what I wanna do is just move on and get over you and the only way for me to do that is to not be around you anymore.
God I love this website so much...she just gets it.
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~*Dare To Dream*~.
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| it's all going to be ok. |
[02 May 2010|01:40am] |
Now I've come to cry
Shed your skin to rest my naked eye and criticize
All that I implore seems to be one foot outside that door
Coming between me and waking
Underneath the corset of your mystery
Piece by piece, undress you from your history
I'm sleeping with seclusion in sweet disarray
You can go heavy on me
And I will not weigh you down, down, down
You can be steady and clean
I can take it heavy on me
And I will not weigh you down, no
Born unto this pride
Silence is something you can't hide
You can't deny us, oh
Nothing has been said, yet so many words have filled my head
Now they completely surround me
Tie the lines of honest conductivity
Caught between the center of our gravity
I don't have that much time to burn anymore
You can go heavy on me
And I will not weigh you down, down, down
You can be steady and clean
I can take it heavy on me
And I will not weigh you down
Underneath the corset of your mystery
Piece by piece, undress you from your history
I'm sleeping with seclusion in sweet disarray, ah
You can go heavy on me
And I will not weigh you down, down, down
You can be steady and clean
I can take it heavy on me
And I will not weigh you down, no
I will not weigh you down
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~*Dare To Dream*~.
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| maybe i'm unlovable. |
[19 Apr 2010|01:09am] |
i'm pulling that move where you hear a song that sums up your life and you listen to it over and over and over...it's almost making me cry.
i hate how you act different around her. it only makes it worse. not for you, not for her. for me. it shatters me into a thousand different pieces and i'm running out of glue and tape to put myself back together.
i'm going to snap one day.
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~*Dare To Dream*~.
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| please just don't play with me, my paper heart will bleed. |
[11 Mar 2010|09:20pm] |
I hold it in. Keep it secret from him. No, I am not trying to inconspicuously snatch him away from her in such a manner. I just want him to be happy. I don’t want him to be sad, feeling bad, hurting himself and her for my own sake. I don’t want him to suffer, and think he’s doing the right thing for me. I don’t need his pity. I just need him.
Basically, I wish that you loved me. I wish that you needed me. I wish that you knew when I said two sugars, actually I meant three. I wish that without me your heart would break. I wish that without me you’d be spending the rest of your nights awake. I wish that without me you couldn’t eat. I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep.
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~*Dare To Dream*~.
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| i just don't want to die without a few scars. --chuck palahniuk |
[20 Feb 2010|06:13pm] |
If you are going to fall in love with me, it’s only fair that you know what you are falling in love with.
You are falling in love with my insecurities, and my obsession with trying to figure out what everyone thinks of me. You are falling in love with my immaturity, my constant need to feel loved and appreciated, my overactive tear ducts, my internet obsession, my tendency to be too clingy. You fall in love with my troubled past, and my hopes and dreams, and how I’m a hopeless romantic at heart. If you fall in love with me, you fall in love with my self-hate and all my imperfections and my perception that nobody could ever love me.
But, you are also falling in love with the way my eyes will smile when I’m with you, the way I’ll text you in the mornings just telling you I hope you have a great day. You’re falling in love with the occasionally humorous and/or thought-provoking things I say, and the way I blush when people ask me about you. But to me, the most important thing will be that you are falling in love with me, despite my thinking that it is impossible.
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~*Dare To Dream*~.
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| i don't think i'm gonna go to LA anymore... |
[14 Feb 2010|10:27pm] |
I have this fear that one day you’ll finally get a good look at me and I’m going to disappoint you because you’ll see that I’m not as strong or as good as you think I am. And I’m afraid that it will change the way you think about me.
In the end, we only regret the chances we didn’t take, the relationships we were afraid to have and the decisions we waited too long to make.
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~*Dare To Dream*~.
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[09 Feb 2010|10:27pm] |
You're being stupid if you think you can nurse every broken person you meet back to good mental health. You're wasting your time. You cannot fix other people.
That's sad, but also probably true. But that doesn't mean I'm going to stop trying.
It’s an easy thing, saying “I love you” to the people that matter. You never know when you might lose them. Or when they might lose you...fact.
And after a while you learn that you don’t need anyone else in order to survive. No one is ever going to always be there, no matter what they say or what they promise you. You just gotta suck it up, accept it and keep going on.
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~*Dare To Dream*~.
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[08 Feb 2010|11:16pm] |
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There’s someone in her past that she hasn’t gotten over yet. Each day is like the last and she misses what she can’t forget. It’s just an empty space where something used to be. Now she guards the gate, but she’s lost the key. No one enters, but no one leaves.
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~*Dare To Dream*~.
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[07 Feb 2010|11:33pm] |
In order to be happy you have to accept that at times, you will be sad and not let that bother you.
He broke me. He screwed me up. He left me scared; not of falling, but of, once again, having no one to catch me. So i know it’s unfair, but you’ll have to pay for his mistakes, if you want to be with me that is. Because along with my cds, he kept my confidence and my ability to trust anyone.
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~*Dare To Dream*~.
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| I woke up and wished that I was dead, with an aching in my head, and lay motionless in bed... |
[03 Feb 2010|10:02pm] |
I’ve made mistakes in my life. I’ve let people take advantage of me, and I accepted way less than I deserve. But, I’ve learned from my bad choices and even though there are some things I can never get back and people who will never be sorry, I’ll know better next time and I won’t settle for anything less than I deserve.
It makes me smile when I talk to a friend who I haven’t seen or heard from in a while, and despite that, nothing at all has changed between us.
Don’t be flattered that he misses you. He should miss you. You’re deeply missable. However, he’s still the same person who just broke your heart. Remember the only reason he can miss you is because he’s choosing, every day, not to be with you.
RUMORS INFORM YOU AMAZING THINGS THAT YOU DID NOT EVEN KNOW ABOUT YOURSELF.
Her biggest fear was that one day he would say ‘I want you back.’ She would break down in tears trying to think of a way to explain she is still too heartbroken from the last time and she’s still not ready to lose everything again.
Everyone’s heartbroken nowadays. But I mean, we all just have to move on. What’s the point of reminiscing when you know the person is no longer worth while; when they’re no longer who they used to be? When their heart is somewhere else? Do you think they still care for you, or are still thinking about you? Because frankly, they don’t.
I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so you appreciate them when they’re right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no-one but yourself and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.
I like to pretend that everything’s alright. Because when everybody else thinks you’re fine, sometimes you forget for a while, that you’re not.
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~*Dare To Dream*~.
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| truth. |
[30 Jan 2010|09:12pm] |
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If i die tomorrow, there will be people who have totally different memories of me. To one person I might be the bitch who thought she was better. To another person I might be the ugliest person on this planet, to her I might be the gorgeous, lucky girl who she despised because I was spoiled rotten. To another girl I might be the girl who got really good grades, so jealousy erupted. To him I might be the girl with the annoying laugh. To another guy I could be remembered as the girl who wasn’t anything to him. Maybe I’ll be remembered as the girl who was always on her phone, or the girl my roommate disliked. But none of that matters. you know why? By my best friends I’ll be remembered as the girl with the contagious laugh and the girl they would go to if they ever needed anything. But most of all, I’ll be remembered by my enemies as the thing they couldn’t add up to.
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~*Dare To Dream*~.
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[15 Jan 2010|12:01am] |
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He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold on to him and give him the most you can. He isn’t going to quote poetry, he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect more than he can give. Don’t analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he’s not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always one guy that is perfect for you.
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~*Dare To Dream*~.
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| this is the truth. |
[29 Nov 2009|09:46pm] |
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You don’t just automatically love someone. you have to slowly learn to trust, then you start believing them. You want to be with them more to the point where you’re jealous of anyone who tries to be with that person. Then it gets you mad but you get past it, you can’t be jealous anymore. You can’t because you have this undying confidence that this person will never leave you, they will never betray you, and that they would never pick someone else over you, that you’re irreplaceable. That’s when the confidence hits you, that you really do love each other and it’s unbreakable.
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1 Dare - ~*Dare To Dream*~.
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| I feel like this song is perhaps referring to my life... |
[25 Oct 2009|08:07pm] |
Don't know much about your life.
Don't know much about your world, but
Don't want to be alone tonight,
On this planet they call earth.
You don't know about my past, and
I don't have a future figured out.
And maybe this is going too fast.
And maybe it's not meant to last,
But what do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?
I just want to start again,
And maybe you could show me how to try,
And maybe you could take me in,
Somewhere underneath your skin?
What do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?
And I had my heart beaten down,
But I always come back for more, yeah.
There's nothing like love to pull you up,
When you're laying down on the floor there.
So talk to me, talk to me,
Like lovers do.
Yeah walk with me, walk with me,
Like lovers do,
Like lovers do.
What do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?
Don't know much about your life
And I don't know much about your world
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~*Dare To Dream*~.
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| I love when I find people who are going through the same things I am. |
[18 Aug 2009|10:20pm] |
And oh these men - who are smart and talented and independent and accomplished and damaged and ambitious and interesting and brimming with character….and yet are always just slightly unavailable. These men undo me.
And the realization that I am enamored - intellectually, creatively, spiritually and ultimately physically - always brings a flicker of halcyon joy followed by a full torch of panic. Because these men - they seem the only ones worth really revealing ourselves for. The only ones worth being present for. But that, I hope you can understand, is rife with a level of vulnerability that suffocates me as thoroughly as a lung full of sand. This power imbalance, being driven out of aloof control by sheer admiration and love, is electrifyingly uncomfortable for me. Nearly intolerable.
And so (I’m realizing) my being present means seeking constant proof, covert and not so subtle, that the gentleman will be here tomorrow. That I am not so far out on this branch as to fall alone. That there is a role for me in their lives…one that at least moderately mirrors the disconcertingly large role they have commissioned in mine. That they want and need me too.
But the irony is that my need - this constant terror that if I admit I want something it will be taken from me - is too heavy for them to carry. Any one of them could actually be there, happy. Or they could spend an exhausted life proving that they are there….until the calisthenics of reassurance became too much.
This can’t be the contract. I am starting to realize. Not for my sake, not for theirs.
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~*Dare To Dream*~.
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| I never wanted you to be alone... |
[01 Jul 2009|01:42am] |
I still love you
I still want you
I still need you
.....Afterall.
For better and worse,
sickness and health,
til death do us part
......Afterall.
Please don't leave me
Please don't leave me
Please don't leave me
........Afterall.
And my soul finds peace tonight
And my heart finds comfort here,
In the knowledge that you'll someday, maybe, be alright.
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1 Dare - ~*Dare To Dream*~.
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